Grace and Peace,
Last night I was praying for God to change some character flaws in me that are unlike Him. A few of these are the tendency to be wayward, inconsistent, easily discouraged and defeated, impulsive, care of what others think of me to the point that it hinders me from obedience. I'm was crying out to Him, so ready to be free from these sins.
Fast forward to this morning, my discipler came by my house and 7 am. Now, I knew he was coming and I knew what was on the agenda but I DIDN'T know the specifics. But I've been praying up to this morning that I'll learn something from it.
We were going jogging in the cold weather and I'M NOT A JOGGER! Anyway, we began the run at a steady pace and we came to a hill and as we were jogging up the hill he starts to talk to me saying,
" You know what I see in you Israel. I see someone who loves God and has a heart to serve God, but you can't take a hit. When life gets hard or obstacles come your way you cave in and quit. When people criticize you, you waver, doubt and complain. People are gonna criticize no matter what you do, they will bring you to your knees and I don't mean in prayer! They will stab you in the back, tackle you, take your legs out from under you and more. You need to take a hit, especially with the calling that's on your life."
By this time we had made it up the hill and were on our way down it. I could hardly breathe and what he was saying was sooo true I was just like whoa. I thought we were gonna be done but he said, " when it gets tough you gotta keep going." And then he motioned me to look ahead of us to another hill that was much steeper! I was like DAG!
Half way up the hill he says," now I want you to give it all you got, go to the top, I'll be right behind you." So I took off, body shaking, heart pumping mad fast, feeling like I was about to drop. While he as behind me saying, "you can do it. The Holy Ghost has you, do it in His power." And between 20-30 feet from the top I stopped throwing up flem and the such. He came to my side and said, "come on lets finish and we both walked the rest of the hill.
Now, I had no idea that this was going to go down but God is good!!!! And I told him what I was praying the night before and my desire to walk right out of those chains.
You see God has gifted me and given me talents that I've hidden because of fear. One was writing, those who follow G-disdope know that other than my blog a week ago I haven't wrote since September. I tossed it off because of fear and I have done this with a lot of other talents. Another one was my talent of rapping, I buried it and used every excuse under the sun for not using it except that God was unjust and reaped where He hadn't sown. Mathew 25:14-28
So all day today I've been praying and pondering on where do I go from here. Usually I would scrap every thing I'm currently doing and start something else(which I was about to do!). But I knew I had to do something different than usual. And I believe God said, move forward with what I've already handed to you in faith. So, thats where this comes into play. It's hard even writing this one, foreal foreal. But I'm responding in obedience through faith. Not caring how anyone views me. And it's a few things I'll be stepping out on, one being using my talent to glorify God and to snatch some of the youth out of the fire.
That's where you come into play, I need your assistance. First off I need prayer and accountability. I ask you all to lift me up and check on me to see if I've shrunk back. Also, I'm looking to raise 600 dollars, yes 600 dollars. This will go into me moving forward with what God has called me to. And third I need encouragement. Any of these will help a brother out. So whatever you believe God is telling you to do, do it.
If you desire to sow financially hit me up in the inbox for specifics.
Family, I'm walking on water from here on out and I would encourage you to do the same.
God is dope,
Israel
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