Blurred Vision

Grace and peace,

I'm a firm believer that there is so much stuff in us and in our lives that we cannot see. Only God can give us the eyes to see these things. Which brings us to my new blog.........

A few weeks ago as I was bussing tables at a restaurant I noticed how I was becoming VERY frustrated at the servers. I felt that they were taking advantage of the "new guy"(at least that's what it seemed to me!) I was taught in training that they were to pre bus their tables as well as a bunch of other things....Which they were doing none of but asking me to do them. On top of that the greeters would always rush me to do this or that even when they saw me doing something else!!!!

As the humble servant I was(so I thought) I "humbly" obliged...Remembering Mathew 5:41

"If someone forces you to go one mile, go with him two miles."

Thinking to myself I'll submit to them....But then I noticed how I would tell myself ,"I'll do it but on my own time.They have to wait" And I would literally take my time and by the time I would get there they would have done it already........I'm thinking hey, I told them I would do it...They should have waited........

Well, today as I was reading a email I was totally ABASED! As I was taken back to this situation.

"Procrastination is a way to get back at people we don't like. We delay. Kids are great at procrastination. You ask them to clean up their room. They do it but they take so long doing it. One of the reasons may be that they're resisting your control. Procrastination is passive resistance. I don't want to do it because I don't like you telling me to do what I have to do. Anger causes us to put things off"  Rick Warren

I was smitten and asked GOD to forgive me! Here I was commending myself and couldn't even see the resentment and bitterness I harbored toward the servers.....Here I was thinking how I was the "model christian" and didn't see the anger I was indulging in......... 

Man I'm so thankful for GOD giving me the eyes to see.........

I reminded of 2 passages that I'll be meditating on(and I encourage you to do the same.)

1 Corinthians 4:4

"My conscience is clear, but that does not make me innocent. It is the Lord who judges me."

My conscience was clear but I wasn't innocent and GOD showed me.......

2 Corinthians 10:18

"For it is not the one who commends himself who is approved, but the one whom the Lord commends."

Here I was commending myself when ONLY GOD's commending matters.........

GOD is good.............

Brothers and sisters, Psalm 51:6 says that GOD desires truth in the inner parts.....So my encouragement to you all is to ask GOD to search you and to show you any offensive way in you......

Psalm 139:23-24

"Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting."

God is dope,

Israel